my anger and hatreds..


during my secondary school.. 
i did had a few best bud that i consider as my own brother...
we have so many good time together..
untill we finished secondary school and further our studies in matriculation..
then one tragedy happens...
the tragedy that change everything..
the tragedy that destroy my relationship with one of my friends..

i dont know why..
untill today..
i still can forget what he had done to me..
and i still hold a grudge to him..
i can't even see his photo..
everytime i look at it..
it makes me abhor him..
i feel so angry..
and i hope that someday i can killed him brutally!!

dear Lord Allah..
what a terrible behaviour that i have.. 
i am not too strong..
to accept Your test and obstacle..
o Allah..
please nurture within me..
a forgiveness feeling..
and fill my heart with calmness..
may i be Your faithful servant...

32 comments:

ahaha..
akhirnye aku ley komen!!!
huhu..

tu je ko nk ckp dayah??
kecewe aku..
huhuhuhu

ahaha..
xkn aku nk ceramah kot kat ko..
nti ko tekan plak button tong sampah 2..
haha..
like i said la kn..
just get rid of it..
not worth it at all!
dorg da xpk pon kenangan dlu..
so,watpe ko nk kenang lg..
dendam 2 mmg la kn..
tp watpe nk tmbh kn titik itam dlm ati ko 2..
n tmbh pahale org len..
jgn pening2 pale..
life must go on rite?
klu ko rase xnk involve ngan dorg lg,ko delete je la fs ke,ms ke..
kn senang..
huhu..

halamak..
skali panjang lak..
baek bos..
sye ikot ckp bos..
hehehe

i understand ur feelings.I have someone like that to.For now,I swear to God that I'll never forgive him.Unless he ask for forgiveness.I just can't stand around him.I don't wish to kill him but I wish that he will suffer the most brutal pain.

ahhh..suda la ko yin..keje asik nk bunuh org je huhuhu..bg ko ted,ak ada n ak mengerti...pikir la mana elok utk ko....Peace forever...

2 la pasal macho..
i hope that Allah always help me..
to purify my heart..
and to make thing easy..
to forget all what had happen..
amiin..

waaa...dayah jd advisor ko ke skang ted??bukn men pnjg advice dia..hahhaha...aku knl kot dak ni..chewah..hurm..bes solution ted,ko muhasabah diri sesorg,ko cube ingt kn kbaikn dia pd ko...jgn pk kn kburukn yg dia bt...insyaallah..hati ko lbh mudah nk memaafkn dia..ble ko da maafkn dia,insyaallah ko akan tenang..siyesly..

haha..
aku pon x tau cmne die leh jd advisor aku min..
tu la..
kotor lg ati aku ni..
tu aku doa dlm entry aku ni..
bia la tuhan bersihkan ati aku..
huhuhu

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